New Year

The new year has begun. No Christmas cards this year. No big fanfare, I think with the emotions of last year it was enough just to survive. Saturday is my father and step mom's family christmas party. It is going to be very emotional without my dad, enough said.

Birthday

So many birthdays and tomorrow is mine! Matthew and Daniel have a swim meet in the evening. Mom and I are going out to a movie or dinner. I'm hoping for chocolate with almonds...Last year I woke to almond kisses and dove chocolate with almonds, Joel hit a homr rune for me.  I'm not big into flowers and spending alot of money, I like practical things, stuff I can use or enjoy or consume. No fancy store bought cards, simple beautiful hand made ones from my boys are the best. I hang them on the windows for months, reminding me of the love for each of my boys.

Good Days

Well Ben's been in therapy for three days. The mornings have been so productive laundry done, dishes done, swept, mopped, vacuumed. I have had so much one on one time with the boys. I started to ask Matthew  if I really spent that much time dealing with issues with Ben and all the boys said very sternly YEAH! So it begins a new day for our family. Dinner was most enjoyable, conversation  pleasant, laughter..... we are healing here at home, we can only pray that Ben is healing as well.  Thank you God for caring for us so much.

Different Day

Monday I met with the counselors at NW Journey. I can hardly belive this is going to happen. Our family has been struggling within, our relationships and Benjamin has been such a focal point.  He will enter the program for six months, five days a week. He receive five types of therapy from sefl esteem to anger management. Monday night was like no other, he tried everything he could to get to me.  I was so calm and didn't pay him no mind.  The things he did were almost comical, had it not been for knowing he was going to get therapy I might not have handled myself so well.

Slow in Posting

I find it difficult to sign in often, I thought it would be easier to make regular posts.